The Phone Call

"Helen Collins" I say as I pick up the phone.
"Mum it's  me ...he says through choked sobs,
I feel startled "what has happened?"

"nothing really"
"Thank god"
" will you call me back in 15 minutes?"


He says he believes that shouting means divorce.
My heart aches.
He is starting to grieve for the 9 year old boy who's parents  divorced.
he is suffering now because of "our" choices then.
And that is the truth the whole truth and nothing but the truth.
Sometimes I hate myself,I certainly used to.
Now I understand and love and forgive myself

I was in pain,severe pain,
Kramer v Kramer comes to mind.

He brought so much happiness with him when he arrives on the planet.
He was and is a much loved child
He has the resources, he has the courage
He will travel through this moment, and  grow too!

H C 1990s